homophrosyne

- anne carson, autobiography of red

an introduction of sorts.

freya (chaentics is also perfectly fine, or rozzed—whatever works!). i think that's all you really need to know about me, but you can always ask if you are curious about stuff. any pronouns.

what i am reading lately: recently finished beartown by fredrik backman, as well as an absurd amount of hrpf (500k in like 5 days). this is like mcr all over again! i have purchased the dragonriders of pern by anne mcaffrey and am slowly but steadily making my way through we breed lions by rick westhead. of course, i must also read private rites by julia armfield at some point, which is sitting unopened and staring back at me...

what i am writing lately: i have decided not to beat myself over the head with revisions on any of my original fiction until i feel compelled to do so. however i would like to work my way through a novella at some point this year. the problem is i am entirely too preoccupied with the delight of heated rivalry and the mess there in order to get my head on straight. i am sure whatever i write will have the afterimage of those guys all over it. it is inevitable!

as for fic, well, of course i am trying to finish chapter 4 of at pinpoint, which is planned out, but plans are known to change. as is evident by the spike from 2 chapters to 4. and the inevitable shane pov follow-up... i am also very much excited for the aptly named wip "raw meat & retirement" in which i return to my favorite: body horror, magical realism, and then the "rookie ilya captain shane hockey and magical powers magic realism slow burn summer party vibes" wip might get written. less succinctly named. if something else strikes my fancy i will pursue that first.

what i am listening to: soulwax dj, thanks to salad

what you should tell me if you read this: writing craft things that intrigue you! craft things you want to work on! i miss lecturing and would like to discuss writing and improving writing and cool wriitng things again but somewhere outside my usual avenues (tumblr, twitter) so maybe i will make some "craft posts" here... put it in the comments, friends and strangers!!

chaentics

so that there is something here:

Some years down the line, when this is too inconvenient, when Hollander stops texting him back, when Ilya gets bored, Hollander’s going to remember Toronto 2010. And it doesn’t matter that Ilya knows the first day they hooked up was a Thursday, or that he can recall the rough scratch of the hotel bedding on his skin. It doesn’t matter that he was the one who demanded his agent email CCM back and say, Get Hollander in there, too. Or that, when Hollander was hard and anxious in the showers, something inside of Ilya rattled with so much want that he felt it in his fingers.

If he puts enough bodies between himself and that Thursday in Toronto, he will forget. If he wants to, he can stop picturing Hollander’s throat bobbing, his hesitant glance downward as Ilya kissed his way down his chest, eager but still nervous. Not sure yet how to let his body do the talking. Ilya will move on with his life. He will fuck other people. He will marry, and some decades from now, Hollander’s photo might pop up for a wedding announcement, crisp shirt collar sitting low, and Ilya won’t even think about his teeth on that neck, his needle through the skin.

Ilya will be able to forget Toronto.

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